I wanna write everything, but also nothing.
A ton has happened since my last post, but also nothing new.
I wrote in my last post that I’d tell the story of how I lost my childhood friend – a girl I’ve considered my absolute best friend up until the day she wasn’t. A girl I just knew would be my friend for life, nothing would take her away. But then it happened.
I suddenly saw she had deleted me on facebook, so i confronted her, obviously thinking it had to be a mistake. But she replied – days later, that it wasn’t. That because of our parents problems, “it wasn’t healthy” for us to be friends.
And I’m like WHAT! We’re adults.
So when she wrote that, I was done. I’m kind of harsh that way – no one gets to hurt me, without getting a reaction. I blocked her on every social media. Days later she tried reaching me through text, but was done. I was like “you did this, live with it.” Because the worst part was that she didn’t contact me, she just deleted me. Looking back, I’ve realized that I’d write to her while after she deleted me without knowing.
I was really hurt, of course. I cried. I never saw it coming. I mean, we live in different cities – me in our home town, and she 100 km away, so why let our parents problems with each other affect us?
But yeah. I could go on, but it’s not worth it. She texted me on my birthday, which of course was nice, but I never replied.
I know she feel really bad, she had hoped I wouldn’t find out.
Well, that was one of the things that have happened.
I really want to be writing more, and make an effort. It’s easter break now, so I hope I will get the time to get som post done.